The last few weeks.....

The last few weeks have been crazy and busy and stressful! I believe my last post discussed the issues with my son. Well, the issues continued. He was kicked out of class by one of the nicest teachers because he pushed her that far. We had to pick him up from school early because they had no where for him to be that day. His punishment? Well, he ran. He ran laps in my yard. After running laps he did homework. Tons and tons of homework. Spelling tests, math sheets, reading worksheets.... Over that weekend he had done more than 30 pages of homework. Not counting the spelling tests I gave him. For using foul language, he ate oatmeal. I happen to like oatmeal. Peaches and cream. But he chose not to eat. That was the hardest part of it all. I talked to his bio-mom and she said she was having a date night with her bf so the kids would be going to grandmas like normal. I suggested keeping him for the weekend instead of the party he would have gone to. It all makes me feel so bad especially writing it all down. But the issues have been going on for too long and no one wants to take the time to remind him there are rules or there are repercussions.
I finished my first class of graduate school. I interviewed my old school counselor and wrote an amazing A paper. My second class started during the first class's last week and before I had gotten my book. Very frustrating.
My daughter started kindergarten round up today. I have been stressing over this all week. She did very good letting me leave. In fact neither if us shed a tear. I found one teacher I can't have as her teacher. I have seen her in the hallway yelling before. Alexis would not handle that well and I might have an issue with it as well. I think Alexis would do well in the classes her brother and sister had. Im so proud of her.
Well I went to the doctor because I had scratched a mole and made it bleed on my back. Every doctor always told me to have it removed. So when I went in for this one mole, I was ok. However the doctor drew a map of my back of 16-17 moles he wanted to take. He daid they worry Jim??? Get. So I had this hassle of scheduling and insurance. I finally made it back last night at 5:30 and they took 5 if them. I hare needles. Especially needles with lidocaine! Agh!
Something else I realized in these few weeks is that I'm not over the baby. At random times I start thinking about it and well, it just isn't over like I thought.
Well, I did this whole blog on my phone. Now I have a headache. Sigh.

Another Step

Well, Mike was able to get a loan for his truck today. Getting a new vehicle is exciting... but there are so many things that makes this a big deal for us. We filed bankruptcy last year. We knew we would be starting over from the ground up. Getting the loan means that Mike can now start to build his credit up. It is a huge step for us. I already started with getting a loan for my van at the end of last year. I am feeling so very thankful that someone was willing to take a chance to help us out. So, we need to stay on top of these and keep building the credit!

We recieved a call today from the elementary school. Apparently, my son (step son) has been using some profound language. It is so frustrating to hear things like this. I have never heard him say any cuss word or profanity. Once I heard him call his sister a "pussy" when they were playing outside last year and that was immediatly corrected. He spent the last two weeks at our house and spent the weekend with his grandmother. Now he is on his mom's time. I am not sure what to think. I have so many opinions as to why.... but honestly, I don't want to be putting all the blame on one person. First of all, Mike and Nicole (mom) need to stop using the words if they do not want his kids to use them. The 'do as I say and not as I do' idea really does not even exist. We should act in a way that we want our children to act. Second, there really needs to be set rules at EVERY house where the kids are frequently at for child care; including our house, Nicole's house, grandma's house, and the sitter. The kids know they wont get away with anything at our house. If we say there is a punishment, then we follow through and generally, the kids don't make the same mistake in the same day. (Minus the minor screams or arguing) The kids are smart, they know where the rules are RULES and where the "rules" aren't crap. It brings me back to the summer when Jordan and Kaleb were involved in breaking out windows of an army tank in their town park while at their mom's. Why was no one watching them? Why were they still given so many priveleges after the incident? Did they learn Anything????

So, I went through my dresser drawer tonight to find all my weight loss medicines.... Hmmm. Apparently I got rid of all of them when I got pregnant this last November thinking I wouldn't need them for almost a year. Well, that sorta back fired! (we may try again) I know I know. Pills are not the way to go. Sometimes I just feel like I need them just to make myself feel like I really need to try. Now what? Do I go get more? Or do I get off my butt and do something! The hardest part is the first step.

I have been posting positive status updates on my facebook for a while. Using quotes to encourage people to think and consider their actions. Well, I think I might start using the Love Dare. It is a book from a movie called Fireproof. If you have never watched it, you need to. It could save your marriage. A friend of my husband's and I lent us the movie to watch and then bought us the book once when we seperated. Three years later.... here we are together with our family making our lives better.
So tomorrow, I begin with Dare #1. "Words often reflect the condition of our heart. For the next day, resolve to demonstrate patience and to say nothing negative to your spouse at all. If the temptation arises, choose not to say anything. Its better to hold your tongue than to say something you'll regret."
Hmmmm.... does this seem easy or hard to do? Love is patient. Show it for one day.

Something Different

I am a facebooker. I am on facebook at least 20 times a day. Between my phone and my computer, I never shut it off. I want something new. I want to try something else. Too often I feel like I actually have something to say but I dont have enough room to post it on facebook. People want a short comment about your life. Well, this will allow me to open up about everything on my mind (to an extent) and explain myself.

First off, I have to start by saying I am not good at finishing little projects that I start. So, diets... ya, they are hard to stick to; workouts... hmmm... ask my eliptical and scale down stairs. I can finish a book however, as long as I never take off more than a day from reading it. I want to keep up with this blog. I want vent and express myself and be able to see how I grow over time. I have so much going on in my life that it is hard sometimes to seperate each issue. Maybe this blog will help me with that. Also, I have considered taking some of my life issues and turning them into a book, altered of course, to a mix between reality and actual events and day dreams or what could have happened instead. I will try to keep those posts seperated.

I intend to "follow" people who I can relate to or who I feel encouraged by. I dont expect everyone or anyone to feel they need to "follow" my blogs.

I want to begin by stating some goals I have. 1. Education: I intend to keep a 3.5 GPA through my schooling in the Masters program. 2. Family: I am going to keep a family night going every week and continue to be the best mother I can be. I am going to take time to spend with my husband. I want to make sure I give it my all, so I never have to doubt what I am doing. Another child may be in the works. 3. Work: I enjoy my job. I love working with kids and families. I am going to continue doing the best I know how to support and encourage the families I work with. I would like to increase the clientel in my area of Iowa. 4. Financial: I plan to keep building my credit back where it needs to be. Carefully. Cautiously. By the end of the year, I want to have a minimum amount of 2 paychecks saved in the bank. (I have never had even one saved.) By April of 2013, I will have chosen a house to buy that is all I want and need. 5. Personal: I am going to take time out everyday to collect my thoughts and evaluate my day. I want to continue to grow spiritually. I want to feel achievement and satisfaction at the end of a week. I will take better care of my body, mind, and soul.

Gees, I wonder how long these are supposed to be. Or how confused I am going to make people reading the blogs. Hmpf. Here we go........!!!